February 2012
6 posts
What have I done!?
My hair is falling out worst than the last time. I don’t even know what to do. I haven’t been able to sleep. I’m constantly worried. This is worse than being fat and I thought nothing was. I knew this was going to happen. I did this to myself. I’m going to be bald AND fat again. I’d rather just be fat. Omg just typing those words makes me want to scream. I’m...
40689) That first bite of the day is the worst. I...
January 2012
20 posts
I had to gain 15 pounds in three days because I...
the scary part is that I did just by eating what a “normal” person would eat. This is why I can’t go back to eating normally.. ever. But now, just because my blood pressure was a little low my mom is trying to make me see the ED doctors again. I refuse. An 18 year old can’t be forced to go to a doctor, right? I’m under such a close watch now from my mom because of my...
The past few weeks...
I’ve been home in constant fear of my parents weighing me but I’m even more fearful of gaining again. When I was away at school I was in complete control of what I ate. Now I’m not even going back and I feel as though I’ve lost all control again. I let every aspect of my life be affected by whether or not I’ve had anything to eat that day. My mind’s not...
December 2011
22 posts
